THE BACHELOR, ABC, Reality TV
And on the show, I think it came - it became a big topic, because we constantly were in these physical activities. I mean let's be honest, every single group date was you know, ok, let's milk a goat. Well, guess what, you have to have two hands to milk a goat. And canoeing, you know, I did it, but it was tough.
It - you know, nothing came easy for me. And that's ok. And I expected that that might have happened, going into the show. But you know, really, I can't say oh the show made it look like I was always talking about my arm, because really and truly, I was in situations where my arm affected my ability to participate. And it affected my confidence with Sean. So, it just was kind of unusual and unfortunate how often it came to light. But really, my day to day life is not revolved around the fact that I have one arm.
If the opportunity came up to be the Bachelorette, is that something that you would be interested in or are you done with the TV love thing?
I think I would have to (seriously) consider it, because, as I mentioned earlier, the experience was probably one of the most life changing experiences of my life. And like I said, I learned more about myself than I could have ever imagined. And I became more vulnerable than I've ever - being with anybody in my life.
I mean you have to consider that up until this show, I never walked around talking about my arm to anybody, anybody. And now, I can open - really talk about it. And you know, my coworkers suddenly feel more comfortable and confident talking to me about questions they might have always had, but never felt comfortable asking me.
And I feel like the show has been an outlet for just a lot of like, self discovery. On - however, I don't - I don't want to just sit around talking about my arm forever. And I don't know if I could do another whole season of that, but at the same time, like I still want to find love. Let's look at the big picture here, I'm still single. And I do want a boyfriend. And I want a husband. And I want to find that special guy. So, you know, there's still a lot to consider.
It seemed that Sean decided he wanted to eliminate you when you showed him all those photos of your family. Do you think things might have played out differently had you waited to show him the pictures until a little later on?
Yes. I've definitely thought about that. And I don't think it would have changed Sean's mind. I think Sean had a pretty good idea about his feelings for me, and his feelings for the other women. And you know, the process of this show, it moves so fast, and you need to be confident and sure of how you're feeling.
And whether I showed him photos of my family on night one or you know, at the fantasy suite, I don't think those photographs changed how he was feeling about me. I think he knew how he felt. And the photographs just probably made him realize, ok, I need to be honest with this girl sooner than later, because I don't want to hurt her.
Do you have a theory on why Sean might have had a change of heart about you?
Yes. I think - I think honestly, getting the first one on one date, as incredible and magical as it was, I think it was kind of a curse, because we've - had an amazing connection right off the bat, and then I had to sit back and you know, just wait for him to develop these relationships with all of the other women, who each week, I'm sure, a New Girl is like stepping into the - into the forefront.
And so, it was just like with each week it became more and more difficult to sustain a connection while he was being introduced to all these other women. And it just - it got - it gets really hard. And I don't have the answer and that's why I was so confused. And it's hard to understand how somebody can like you so much in the beginning and feelings fizzle.
I mean I think that's true for anybody in any relationship that's not worked out. You're always left wondering why. Well, why not? Like, you used to like me so much. You used to love me, and why do you not now? So, it's just a very, very confusing and sad feeling.
What can you tell us about Catherine, because until this week, viewers hadn't really seen much of her.
Catherine until this point, has been a little of a dark horse. You know, she hasn't gotten too much airtime, and in the house, she wasn't even getting much time with Sean. So, it's really interesting and exciting to see it all unfold. And I'm happy for her, because you know, it's hard to see Sean developing these feelings with girls, but I watched their date in Canada, and it's just hard - it's - I don't know, it warms me inside to watch them and know that they were developing this great connection, because they didn't see it in the house.
She was one of the last Girls to get a one on one. And so it just makes me happy to see that they were - they were building those feelings. And Catherine is such a down to earth real, real girl that it just makes me happy to see she got to open up with Sean.
What about Ashley, Lindsay, Lesley and Desiree? Do you have any general thoughts on those girls? Do any of them stand out to you as being better for Sean than the others?
I always have thought Lesley is a great connection for Sean. You know, it's so interesting now that I am no longer on it and I don't know what happens, but I think Leslie is great. And I think Lindsay's tremendous. Lindsay was probably one of my better friends in the house. She's such a sweet girl and has the biggest heart. She's just like this tiny ball of fun and so, she's wonderful.
And (Ashley) has the biggest heart, obviously, everyone is seeing that. And Desiree's fun and spunky and very real. Daniella is awesome, but she - I think she went home after me too, I guess so - who - am I (missing) anybody? They're all - I mean the Girls are all so great. I loved all of them.
After your elimination, you seemed to feel like this situation has happened to you before, you fall for a guy, and then he breaks your heart.
Honestly, it saddened me to think that I've been through that situation so many times. But I can't tell you how many times I will begin to date a guy and start going down this road and get the same story you know, several weeks into it. You're great. You're funny. You're sweet. You have the biggest heart, but there just isn't a connection. Or you know, I'm not right for you. And you (deserve) someone so much better and you deserve someone who's going to treat you amazing.
I've been told that more times than I can count. And I think a lot of Girls can relate to that. We've probably all been told that at some point. But I feel like, for whatever reason, it just happens all the time to me. And so, I knew where Sean was going. And the second he sat me down, I knew what he was going to do. I knew he was sending me home.
And it's just like is aid on the show, I knew what he was going to say but I wanted to hear his explanation because I'm just - it was like déjà vu. I've been there. I've sat in that very same place so many times, and I always get the same answer. And so, I just wanted to hear it again, I guess I don't know why I keep getting told that.
We all know he's there looking for his wife and so, I can't blame him for not feeling it with me. I think it's not fair to say like oh, he was just you know, giving me the same line that every guy does, because I know that's what I said. But he deserves more credit than that. He was sweet and honest about it.
But I'm just saying from a personal standpoint, I am confused why I always get told that. Like, I'm confused why none of the guys in my life have ever felt like I am that guy that deserves you. And I'm going to be the guy that treats you amazing. That's what confuses me and makes me sad. So, there's no hard feelings toward Sean. And I don't blame him, like I said, I just - I'm confused, from my perspective you know, who this guy is going to be and when he's going to come along.
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Caryn Robbins is a features editor for BroadwayWorld, covering TV, flm and the best of Broadway theater. |